why do i blank..?

[Tangled Web]

Hi nats. There have been times when I have been talking about things and for some reason my mind goes completely blank. I hate it when it happens right in the middle of a sentence. I have been told it is a form of dissociation. Sometimes I can get the thoughts back but most of the time they are lost. It is frustrating. I don't "switch" or anything, I am still present and know that I was talking about something and that I did have a point to make but all my thoughts and the topic of what was being discussed have been erased somehow and I have a feeling of being lost. I haven't figured out why it happens or how to prevent it from happening, it just happens. It is hard to figure out why we needed that defense mechanism as a child and I am sure it had served a purpose in protecting us at one point in time but it is frustrating when it kicks in without warning as we are an adult and no longer need or want it to happen anymore. Sitting here listening.
TW