More on friendships

[The People]

As mentioned on steam I lost a friend last week. She was from my old city (deleted details as they aren't part of the question)

This woman was a bit shy and you had to get behind her shield to see what an intelligent woman she was, warm heart, a bit anxious...

I remember visiting her classroom one day to check on something. She introduced me as "This is Ms Root Name. (Job details) And she is someone I would like to get to know better!" Al this with barely making eye contact; shy sincerity.

I was stunned. I didn't own a pair of shoes that weren't scuffed. She always knew how to make everything match. Because of her husband's job they were a bit upper crust in the city. My old boss used to make fun of her but I had gotten past that as said boss was an idiot who made fun of everyone?

But why would she want to be friends with little ole me? I get confused over this many times. Not just with this friend but with others too. The friend I made both in university and there, and starting here. I look in the mirror in puzzlement. Confusion. These are people that have so many options for friends who love and admire them. And they choose me? Perhaps they choose the cut out of me that I place in front. One like they had of Justin Bieber in the perfume dept at Shoppers Drug Mart. But who would want to be friend s with a piece off cardboard? I do not get it. I asked a friend about this once. Why she would want to be friends with me as I was mopey and frumpy. She named off some characteristics I couldn't see and didn't view as counting when it comes to the important things in a friendship. I wouldn't want to be friends with me if I was in a separate body. Why do other people want this?

I know we have talked about people who stick pretty close to here for friendships but have made connections at work or whatever in various ways. Do you ask the why thing?