This question about feeling alone

[Blue]

Yo. I feel very much alone most of the time. i have no friends (other than our host) an nobody seems to understand me. Except for on here. i really value the people on here. But yea, it's f***in hard not havin that person by your side. I do actually have my host's partner, Antonio to talk to but he mostly takes the mick out a me an he doesn't really understand, though i do value his bein there. it's really hard cos i feel i am fallin for him and yet, he doesn't belong to me. Sometimes i feel i am going crazy cos of him.
I guess, reading back my post to myself, i am lucky that i have Antonio to talk to. It's just hard when i have such strong feelings for him, knowin he loves our host, not me. But i shouldn't be complainin. At least he's there.
Sorry ya feelin so alone. Sending waves of comfort your way.
Blue.