This question about feeling alone

[The People]

Last night something happened that I had no wish to get into with regards to details. I was having a good day. Even did some cleaning and writing and some other stuff prior to going out for a few hours. That few hours pulled the rug out from under me.

As a result of this (it was the last straw) I quit my volunteering; working one last shift before moving on to other things. However nothing changes. When things get bad they get very bad. So bad thoughts of various kinds creep in. Saved by a binge because he food I chose was frozen and that freezer happened to be busted - I actually was the one who reported it. I went to another store and wandered around until I realized that I really didn't want to do that. I came home and crawled into bed. Sometimes I would write my T when I was feeling that bad but could not bring myself to do so.

There was a multi-leveled rejection which left me feeling as if I do not fit in anywhere. It makes me want to just hide under the covers. I sat my alarm for church and the bell has long since run yet here I sit.

I am going to crawl back into bed; I have been playing games on Facebook; another place where it is easy to claim someone as a 'friend' but 3Dconversations are unable to happen.

I don't think I am the only one who feels this way as others have gone through it as well. But how do people deal with a sense of rejection and isolation? It makes it worse that I am an extrovert who has lost a lot of friends through various means over the past while.

I do not mean to diminish the relationships I make here, or even on Facebook. They keep me going. However, while one can go for coffee with their computer (laptop) it is not the same as having a body in the next chair.

I just feel so alone. And it hurts. And sometimes I guess there is nothing that I can do to fix it except to wait it out.