freakin' out some (maybe more than some)

[Dreamscapes Collectives]

well, he made it to California safely and made it to Caltech safely. He sent a picture of his room for the month. it's small but he gets it to himself.

He said that no one had warned him what take off and touchdown were gonna feel like and that made him nervous but otherwise the flight was okay.

I think this is going to be the beginning of a rough time for us. When they were little the fact that we didn't remember much from our childhood made it hard sometimes to figure out how to react in a situation, but we knew enough to know we didn't want to react as our parents did.

Now...their lives are branching farther from anything we went through and we have no idea how to react. We don't have the same ruler for when they were little because we didn't do anything like going to college, moving away from the family, etc. so we find ourselves kind of flailing not sure how we're supposed to act, react, so far. and it really HURTS us to know that all three kids want to get far away from Texas. Rationally I know this has nothing to do with how they feel about me, but emotionally...something in me just wants to hang on to them and not let them go.

I think that's what's causing so much freak out among people.

I'm proud of him, I'm happy for him. most of the negative feelings are about how *I/we* are reacting to this. we feel like we're being selfish and undermining what he worked so hard for.

thanks mosaic, MDs, for the replies. it helps to know we're being heard...

ShayRisa