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I will not give graphic descriptions of red dot material, or of the other things I will speak of. Some medical and sp. material included. I really don't know if Steam is the correct board for this post.

For about a year, starting in 2005, I did volunteer work at a store near where I used to live. I thought they were just some New Age Yoga religious thing, but they turned out to be a d*ng*r**s c*lt. I told them up front I wasn't interested in affiliating with a sp.organization. The store was pleasant and air conditioned. I worked a few hours a week on financial records. I innocently told person I worked for that they used the same energy in their massages to break up energy blockages as did martial artists. I had a couple of sessions, which worked. Eventually, I was invited to a special service at their church. As a sp. researcher, I did consider going, but Googled the person in charge and saw that he was ev*l, without a doubt. I told them it would be inappropriate for me to attend, and that I would be terminating my volunteer work at the store. This was politely done.

However, some time after, I was att*ck*d from behind (by touch) as I sat in a neighborhood coffee house. This sort of thing would not hold up in a court of law, and no one else was aware of what happened anyhow. It was the person I had worked for. I managed to get away and heal myself. I wrote to the manager that any further approaches in any way were not welcome by me. My tone was not polite. That was in 2006.

Have I come to h*rm because of them? Yes, but not in a manner that I would discuss here. I'm a good person, a monomind, not without flaws, but not rejecting myself in any way. I am concerned with certain aspects of the human condition, and my curiosity, modest abilities, and some poor choices, have gotten me into trouble more than once.
There's no help forthcoming, except for what I can find for myself, in myself. As a moderate individualist/iconoclast sort, I don't exactly win popularity contests. Besides, I would learn from the help given, even if that was unintended. In a word, I'm scr*w*d.

About an hour ago, I got an email. I'm on an in-house mailing list, from which I should have been removed. I probably was, and reinstated. It seems the person I worked with is critically ill. Can't say I care, given what they've done to me, which I had begged years ago for them to stop.

There are about 30 email addresses on this thing, and I figured I'd just block them, but it doesn't work that way. Further email from these m*nst*rs can be made to go to trash bin. I want it to be blocked (out of my sight), or rejected and returned to sender. I wrote to email place and asked what can be done? Like they're going to answer.
Sure, I can think of alternatives like changing my email addy. I don't want to do that. I have too much to do in too short a time now, and there's a lot involved. Besides, I have a lot invested in that name.... But, I might have to. There is no doubt in my mind that I will be contacted further. I will not answer.

My life has gone from p**nful to being at the tip of an abyss of chaos since the end of March (a traditionally very bad time for me for some reason). This includes a misdiagnosis which led to medicating me with something that made me more ill. Then I went to a dermatologist, who did a lot mess up my case, along with shall be say an unkindness that occurred during minor s*rg*ry to remove what he was trying to fool me into thinking was a skin tag, but which I was later told was biopsied as a wart. I'm not sure that is so either, and have doubts that the procedure was done properly. It is an increasing policy to play head games and lie to people over 65. I can't believe how I'm spoken to by medical professionals. I just let them talk. If they're not trustworthy and don't respect me as a human being, I want to know up front. The whole thing is so out of hand.
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It is my feeling that this world, universe, is in a h*ly war. This is coming from an atheist, of a complex kind. I've engaged something I don't understand. It's not a matter of political parties, or religion one-upmanship, or economic theories, or truth vs fantasy re terrorists, etc. It's something else.
Sometimes a voice of reason shows up in a newspaper, but it's drowned out. Life as we have known it is disappearing, replaced by war and bs buzz words. In my experience with the unknown, there is too much intent consciousness to be ignored.

I know I have to find my own way out.

Thank you,
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