changes

[DebEtAl]

i used to post on here a long time ago
much has happened
many things have changed and there is much fear in posting this short missive
but there are those whose insistance i can no longer resist
i am very frightened
my co-conciousness is disappearing and i don't understand things anymore

[nats]

welcome back. it's ok to be scared but it's also good to reach out.

[just peachy]

hi debetal .welcome to the group ..I am just peachy jp for short ..what is it that you are freightened of ? why is it that you have a fear of writing ? what does that mean you have a fear of posting short missive ? never heard of that ... did you work on co -- consciousness with a counselor ? or did you learn on your own? I learned mostly on my own ..and from reading some books about did .. there are t hose whose insistence I cannot resist.. what is that in reference to . not sure of what that means .. have no fear for god is near . that is in the bible ..just remember that the main reason persons have these ,did support groups is so that we each can find peace healing and help in our lives .to go on living with a lot less pain and a lot more help ..at least that's the way I have seen what they are like .. jp

[CloudofWitnesses]

hi debetal,
I'm new too. We are theCloud and we're coconscious. Is that frequent to lose one's co-consciousness?

[Cammy]

Hi Deb (et.al.),
I am not sure what you mean as coconsciousness. I once experienced two personalities sharing my consciousness at the same time, and it was a very confusing, disturbing experience to actually feel two sets of memories, attitudes and feelings in my mind at the same time. I could even see my one self standing in front of me as if I was two people one standing right behind the other. It was highly disorienting. This is what I think of as coconsciousness, so this is why I ask if you have a different meaning. I am wondering if you are referring to the situation where you remember what other alters have done and experienced when they were your host personality? If this is the case, I have experienced amnesia barriers between personalities so that I don't remember what the alter has said or done when it was the host. Generally, however. as time goes on I have found these barriers to dissolve, and to have less amnesia barriers rather than more. It would seem to me that if you are experiencing more barriers, it may be possible that you've got increased stressors or trauma in your life at this time. This may be one of those times when it is good to consult a psychologist who is familiar with DID in order to get answers.
I am glad to welcome you here and once you post this on the general boards you should get much more feedback that may well help you work through this. Welcome to MM!!!

[The People]

The name rings a bell. Is it possible that a strong alter who has remained inside thus far is trying to take over?

What methods have you used to try to connect? I remember a few alters who kept a journal and would leave questions out.. Sometimes they would get answers.