"Conference room" jitters...light "I" mention

[Katz Krew]

Ok so as I've said I've been "I" for over a year. In T I've been discussing and exploring allowing myself to feel and express anger at my mom. I am doing EMDR and 2wks ago when I got closer to feeling the anger I hit a wall, got very sleepy and had to admit my resistance to going any further. T suggested I do a "conference room" to see who was blocking my ability to go further and actually feel the anger. Mom passed in 94 so it's. Not an issue of fearing losing her love.

So last wk i went to conference. Now I was perfectly happy being many and had no plans to "I"...then it happened naturally. I am happy being "I-d'" but also do not fear splitting again. In conference room I met "Sleepy Jean" who I had never met nor knew existed. She is very young and gets sleepy and shuts down when faced with stressful situations.

Now I'm a bit unsettled with conference room. Again I don't fear being many but really enjoy being "I-d". I must say that whenin conference the insiders present as "etheric" in how I see them rather than bodied. Almost like foggy ghoststhan bodies as they used to be.

Just needed to throw that out there. I think I need to tell T about my unsettledness so. We can explore it further.

Thanks for listening