Struggling

[orek]

(08-28-2014, 03:49 PM)57thomas Wrote: waiting another week seemed like it might as well be a year. She keeps telling me to call her when things get really bad, but I just can't bring myself to do it.

Now that I realize that's why my memory is so bad I'm trying to practice mindfullness whenever I can

I had my third EMDR session yesterday. This was the first time that it worked as described in the literature. ... But last night the tension was taking over and I knew anger was next (to be followed by depression) so I got on the elliptical machine for an hour, then went to the park and juggled/danced my heart out to some music for a couple more hours until I was worn out.

Anyway, I'm glad there are people like you I can relate to and talk to.

Hi, 57Thomas--We'd been away for a while and hadn't met you. I love that you not only exercised in a "traditional" manner (love those elliptical machines, though I don't have access to one right now so mostly run) but also went to the park and juggled/danced your heart out. That's awesome.

Our new T does EMDR work, for which I'm glad. We've only seen here about 4 times, so too soon to do that work, but I'm glad to read some perspectives on it from people here who've tried it.

I also really relate to the mindfulness. We're trying meditation and yoga, both to help "reprogram" our nervous system to a healthier one and for reducing anxiousness and learning to be "in the moment." We were diagnosed over two decades ago but didn't have a good T until this last one that just retired last month after 9 years. But knowing about the DID did answer a lot of questions, including the memory issue one. That in itself is a bit of a relief.

And yes, i get the cancellation issue. Our new T cancelled last week when we really were primed and needing to go (in fact, one of our teens, Davis, had emailed her and was bucking up her courage to go--though she wouldn't phrase it that way, of course, and she rescheduled for the next day. That delay still pushed us back a bit (since we haven't developed trust with her yet), but we were relieved not to have to wait a 'whole' week, which might as well be a year, as you wrote.

Anyway, just wanted to jump and say hi and that we're glad to see you all here. Take care.--orek