hurt/angry

[angel with wings]

I was supposed to meet with a friend today for some hang out time. but once again, I was stood up. I always set myself up for getting hurt. I allow myself to be sucked in to their lies. I always know that it will never end well, yet im stupid enough to believe them.
when I allow myself to believe, to hope for anything, I always get hurt. its why I have been pulling away from the 3d world and hardly ever leave my house. when I do go out, this always happens to me, and then I get reminded of why I stay home in the first place.
this angels wings have been clipped once again and I am devastated. I sometimes wish this would all end, permanently.
I hate the way 3ds hurt me all the time, without care as to how it effects me. no one sees any value in me nor puts any effort to spend time with me. im alone in this world, except for my mate. don't know how much longer I can bear it.