HATE HER

[nats]

hi TW, sorry it's such a horrible mess. please ignore if we're out of line, but sounds like you're still very much attached to wanting her to love and respect you - we only get really worked up when we feel devalued/disrespected by those whose opinions we care about. maybe it's different for you, but does sound like letting go of 'something' would be important.

when you mentioned speaking out, the first thing that came to mind is write down your story, the whole of it, anonymously somewhere that you can save it permanently (e.g. online Cloud storage). it's cathartic and it provides a permanent record somewhere outside of you. tell someone you trust where it is perhaps, but otherwise there's no need to share it unless you want to - but if you want to do something with it, it's there.. just a thought.