HATE HER

[Tangled Web]

I hate that freaking woman SO much I could just scream! I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HER!!!!~!!!!
I have been struggling with internal issues lately ALOT and it has taken so much energy to just get through the day.
And then when I think I might be making some process in figuring some things out I get this email........right out of the f*ck*ng blue from the evil most wicked person in the world ever... THE MOTHER!
So I sent it back to her with no response. She is NOT computer literate so she would think it just bounced back to her. WELL she sends me another one only this time she gets nasty. Calling me a liar and telling me I destroyed the family and that everything is my fault and I have no idea what I lost.....and BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH. Well that came in about 3 emails. So I didn't respond thinking she would give up but nope they just came coming. Then I had enough. You see in my family if you don't dispute what the person has said then they go on thinking they have won and they are right and you agree with them. WELL I just can't do that anymore. I was trying to respond with .....ummmm don't know......lets just say I didn't lash out like I wanted to. I can't stand by anymore and let her call me a liar or say anything and not defend myself. I spent the last 40 some odd years doing that and I can't do it anymore! And finally I wrote to her telling her not to email me anymore that it is just better if she stays in her neck of the woods and I will stay in mine. Well doesn't she turn that around and tells me she doesn't understand how I can be so HURTFUL towards her! Can YOU f*ck*ng BELIEVE THAT??????? ME being hurtful towards her!!!!!!! UN f*ck*ng BELIEVABLE!!!!!!! oh and then she says to me.....but she will still love ME!!!!!!!! and tells me NOT to respond. WELL I responded all right! Like I will ever give HER the last word on THAT ONE!!!!!!! I am just shaking my head. All I can do is shake my head. I am so f*ck*ng PISSED OFF! I just want scream but my head hurts so I am just shaking my head.
I know I shouldn't open up the emails that are sent by her but I am driven to. I can't explain it. It is just something I HAVE TO DO! She doesn't get to get away with what she does to us anymore. I f*ck*ng HATE HER SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She is the one who destroyed this so called family not me! She is the one who hung up on me and disowned me and then has the nerve to blame me for it. NO WAY! isn't happening anymore..............uuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggg