I did it

[The People]

Just read your second message. Instead of running away can I make a suggestion? Go to a place where kids hang out. Bring a drink and some music maybe. Just sit for a bit and watch how the kids interact. How they trust. Then look at little you before you went down the Rabbit Hole. Do you see these kids in front of you as being able to protect themselves and judge who can and cannot be trusted? If that was possible these boards would be empty. And if those kids are too young and innocent to know why are you so different? If you run he wins. Even if you faced him he still wins if you run the other way and leave the safety of your T etc. Perhaps a bath or something else that makes you feel safe might be a good idea right now until you can speak to T and get grounded. You are big now. It was not your fault. it was 100% his no matter what age you were. He is in a position where you are SUPPOSED to be able to trust him.