Controlling who comes out?

[Downtherabbithole]

Back and forward I go debating whether to face this man... I'd started to feel ok about it like the lil engine that could. I think I can I think I can. After all I wasn't going there to make a scene. I was going there to be invisible( as much as poss) but face my fear, the power that someone had in knowing my kryptonite. If I lessen the effect of the kryptonite then he looses that power n this don't have a reason to fear him. He doesn't even need to know about what I'm attempting to do. Infact better that way. If he pushed matter n called my bluff before it was no longer a bluff ( ie that he didn't terrify me), then things wouldn't go well.

I'd been set, go there to the service he was going to be next door the whole time I didn't need to see him if I was careful. So I think well I can't go then sneak out cause if my friend found out I'd done that without even saying hello shed be pissed. Plus I would like to see her, thinking I could say hey when your done with service wanna meet at local cafe?... So I told her was thinking of coming to 11 am service.
She's all hey that's cool would be good to see me, she says pop next door n say hi, oh n there's a church potluck lunch afterwards you should come along... So I think, umm .. Oh crap.. Because even if avoided the man waiting till he left to go say go to my friend, but going to a church lunch in the church hall, well he's going to be there and though could be lots of ppl( another issue again. Crowds urk), but I'd definatly have to be in same room.

Anyone got any ideas on how to stop or control switching so that a vulnerable part doesn't get triggered n come out?