sad.......

[Tangled Web]

(02-05-2014, 01:54 PM)tweeter Wrote: Whatever got in your way is a done deal, which isn't the most comforting thought in the world. To me, the fact that you wrote the card and still agree with its message is very meaningful.

My advice is to let that apology, its intent(s), resonate throughout your being. Forgive and accept yourselves. I know what deep regret feels like, and, in my case, to have an apology refused. Some things can't be fixed. It might be good when then there's further opportunity to try, and to put a limit how far to go. Either way, my imperfect advice stands.
tweeter

Hi tweeter. The thing is that I don't think I agree with the message anymore. The sadness comes from feeling the need to apologize for something that I could never be to my parents.
The apology came from that place where you believe everything that happened was your fault. And the weight of that and the pain it creates is just a reminder...... Along with all of the "old" messages..............
You are so very right that some things just can't be fixed. I used to think that if I could just figure out WHY and find the answers to all those questions that started with the word WHY, it would somehow make things better. But it doesn't. This is something you just can't fix or rationalize or find a good enough reason to make it ok. They all just turn out sounding like excuses and there are no excuses to EXCUSE their behavior or change what happened. That has start to sink in and I am not dealing with shock waves that has created very well. Thanks for responding.

tangled