sad

[Tangled Web]

I am struggling so much right now. I have been writing things down for about an hour an then I just end up erasing them. I have thought about emailing T and tried to do that but things just end up erased. I thought about calling someone but I just keep thinking I don’t know what to say. I am alone. Usually I like being alone but lately it is starting to hurt. Tomorrow is my birthday and I don’t have anything to celebrate. I don’t have any family, well I have a son and a sister( not close to anymore) and a very evil step mother(who is not in my life) but like to sends me emails telling me she misses me and she loves me………..and then turns around and tells me that I am liar and how awful of a person I am. I hurt and hate this time of year so much.