overwhelmed, triggered 24/7, and struggling

[chem_in_6]

ever have so much going on in life that communicating wants and needs to people is difficult?

that's where we are. typing is hard. talking to people over the phone is hard. calling via phone or Skype is hard. Face to face talking is really awkward. internet chat functions are bad too. we have one place where we can talk, but it's hard to keep track of who wants to say what and who is even trying to communicate.

we made a list of coping mechanisms for when we feel triggered, stressed, too switchy to do anything. nothing on the list feel like it helps. we are very sad and very scared

we are constantly triggered this month due to old trauma and "bad bad bad" memories.

we met a new little/middle. name is Shadow and likes to jump and slide between being 8 and 13. Mella is excited to have someone her age. however, there is another voice who is scary. we've never seen who the voice belongs to, but the voice is loud, scary, and angry. this voice sounds old, too... like the voice of a mad old man who yells

dammit. we're crying now for no good reason. FRAK

-the crew plus Shadow