Feeling down

[Blue]

My name is Angel. I am Blue's and others' host. I feel very depressed and don't know who to talk to. I feel lost and like my head is going to explode. Sometimes

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i wish i were dead

. I've got all these awful feelings inside that i can't express because they hurt too much. I know Blue and Sarah have made a lot of friends on here. Whereas i hardly know anybody because i've been too afraid to post anything. I feel like crying constantly but i have no tears left. I feel very alone. It's amazing how you can have all these insiders yet feel so alone. I feel like i can't pull myself up out of this black hole. It feels that there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I should stop feeling so sorry for myself and pull myself together and just get on with things, but i don't know how. As Eminem would say, I have all these skeletons in my closet, and i feel like they're all coming out at once. I feel totally out of control. I don't know what to do......

Angel.