new developement

[Tangled Web]

And it isn't that I don't want to talk about this stuff.............well I guess a part me doesn't, but I want to heal and if I need to talk about it that is what I want to do, I just don't know how. Even as I type that last sentence it sounds so stupid me, what do you mean you don't know how to talk, you just open your mouth and start talking. Well I open my mouth and nothing comes out. My mind goes blank and I have absolutely nothing to say. It might be a defensive thing that is happening but I don't know how to get around it. I don't know how to get control over it. I don't know what is even behind it. And I don't know what to do to fix it.
TW