Another day of struggling

[Cammy]

Igraine has returned after happily serving her self-imposed sentence. When I feel I have wronged and the wrong may have created harm, I have a strong sense of self-justice. It's sort of like if I do not balance out the negative energy I have created, it will return to me in a very unpleasant way. I know this all sounds really 'new age-y', but it's not that at all. It's just that I have found this to be a consistent reality in my life. If I don't take action, it's like the universe will do it for me and in ways that I have no control over. It's much better for me to create this balance on my own terms and at least I know what's coming. I've had too many unpleasant surprises all my life and lately in particular to chance upsetting this strange balance aspect of my life. So the punishment was truly necessary to prevent something unpleasant from happening to me. Sounds crazy. Probably. But it doesn't alter the fact that this is a reality in my life. I thank you for your indulgence. Igraine.