Another day of struggling

[Cammy]

My host personality is going through major changes. So much life trauma and super bad anxiety issues over several months have altered my host me considerably. Unbelievable. I'm strong (despite the near constant anxiety/panic), I have zero tolerance for crap from others, I am almost completely unselfconscious in public, I express and feel emotions easily for the first time in my life, I express my opinions to others easily (though respectfully and kindly), and many other things. Total growth curve here. The constant psychological suffering has really altered things. Anyone who knows me and has seen me recently are quite amazed at the difference. I've broken through some kind of barrier and there's no going back, and I don't want to go back. One of those WOW events in life. Still, I'm having a very rough ride every single day, but that may be all part of it. Someone once said "Suffering is good for the soul." Maybe it's good for the psyche too. I know I've been pushed far, far beyond limits I thought I even possessed. I'll definitely never be the same again.