Scared, Skeptical, and have no idea

[finlyalive]

This has been a way of life forever. Sometimes, dealing with things seems like a good idea and sometimes it doesn't. After all, it has gotten this body through life. The swiss cheese memory can be annoying, but also a relief. Can't help but wonder what the real ultimate goal is and whether it is worth it or not. Fear has a way of creeping in and saying it isn't worth it. Desperation says it is worth it. It seems everyone wants something different. How do you come to a decision? Ignoring it worked for a while, but they will not be ignored for long. The depression gets so deep, the anxiety so over the top. The frustration is beyond belief. We'll never be normal. We'll always be we and that is okay. We're not sure what her intentions are. Perhaps that is the first goal -- finding out what her goal is.

Thank you Mary and Allegra. You give a new perspective.