Connections

[Tangled Web]

Well I had my meeting and we talked about the email we had sent her. I guess it well as in she didn't get angry or reject us in any way. That is good right? She really seemed ok with it. So why did I leave her office feeling so disconnected and disappointed?
I don't understand. I do know that she didn't really do anything to cause that and I have figured out that ALL of this is coming from within me. For some reason right now I can't see all the responses she gave me as being good ones even though I know on some level they were very good responses. I cannot connect to them and that is where my disappointment lies. I wanted to so much and still do but something is preventing me from doing that. It is like I took this huge risk and it all worked out but I can't feel the benefits of it. I don't understand. It is so very frustrating and why can't I just let myself have this? I want it, I really do.
Tangled