Just got OFF the meds. Now this.

[Cammy]

Last week's four day and night panic and anxiety extravaganza has changed one of my diagnoses from mild/moderate anxiety/panic disorder to severe anxiety/panic disorder. After 22 years on SSRIs I just got off of them five months ago. Now my T is telling me that at this level of anxiety/panic the first line of treatment is definitely meds as in benzodiazepines, possibly for life. Why? Because now the disorder is physiologically entrenched and not likely to be very responsive to just therapy and meditation. Therapy and meditation will help, but only the meds will control and stop it. I am bummed out and most seriously displeased. I thought I had all the psychotropic meds finally behind me, now this. I don't think it ever stops. But I'm going to be realistic about this...I cannot live in a state of perpetual high anxiety and panic (I proved that to myself last week). So, meds it is. Like I've mentioned elsewhere, I'm going to keep working with what I've got and try to move forward. But that still doesn't mean that I don't have to feel peeved off and disappointed by this. Triple Krapola anyway!