Overwhelming and extremely scary day

[dragonfairy]

In just two hours we have to go and meet with our new psychiatrist. For us this is a very scary thing. We have had many on and off over the years and NONE of them have understood anything about us or have ever been of much help. They all seem to just want to drug us with meds to "make the voices stop" as if that is ever going to happen and send us on our merry way. They dont listen to anything we have to say at all. They scare each and everyone in our system. Our "T" actually picked this one out herself as he is a friend of hers that is supposed to specialized in people like us that suffer from being DID. So he is supposed to understand us more and be of more help but just because he says that doesnt mean that we trust him one bit. We hate all the questions and all the invasion of our privacy. It also really has bugged us in the past when these so called "doctors" have tried to make friends with some of us inside. We dont want to make friends with someone who just wants to drug the body to make us all go away anyways. We know to the outside world we are freaks but to us this is who we are and we like how we are. We may not be perfect and we sure are alot screwed up but we are still us and want it to stay that way! All the "littles" are crying and begging not to go. All the "bigs" are preparing for whatever fight may come. And our host is scared out of her mind because ever shrink that we have ever seen has managed to set off so many past memories that we have regressed each time and eventually ended up back in the hospital. So today overall is a very stressful and scary day for everyone in the collective. Just thought we would share with all of our friends here just in case no one heard from us for a few days or more you would know why.