Another day of struggling

[Cammy]

It's Sunday night. I am safe. Thursday a.m. my Rx was to be refilled...I ran out. Had an appt with my D, but had flat tire just before reaching the highway. Phoned D right away, explained it all. Was given instructions to get pharmacy to fax med requests and it would be taken care of. Did so and so did the pharmacy. The clinic is closed Friday, Sat, Sun with no doctors until April 18. One of my meds is not to be discontinued suddenly. Well...the pharmacy never received anything back from the clinic. Now, I have spent the last four days AND nights with severe panic attacks that are escalating in frequency and severity. I cannot go to ER or Urgent Care as this is not a life or limb threatening emergency. I would be severely ridiculed, treated abusively, and still not receive the needed medications before being shown the door. Four days and nights. Slight visual hallucinatory activity is beginning, the content of which is not very pleasant, but I've always handled this phenomenon quite well. So again, I do not even qualify as an urgent psychiatric situation right now according to our current healthcare standards. Is it just me, or is there something wrong with a health care system that would refrain from treating a person in distress just because it's a 'psych' problem? If this were a bladder infection or a small laceration, then I'd be more than welcome to receive aid. Sorry for saying this, but the system has its whole head up its butt. I'm exhausted and just a teeny, tad peeved so I'm definitely cranky at the moment. Maybe tomorrow when the clinic opens again, they can figure out what went wrong, and maybe even fix it. Maybe...pretty please. Okay...I've had my little whine for the day so I'm off in hunt of tea lightly seasoned with a pound of sugar.