It has only taken 25 years or so

[Cammy]

I just read a post by someone who was integrated and functioning for many decades, and then it all came apart again for no apparent reason. For me the message and reality are clear...this doesn't ever get better. Waiting around for it to improve is a hopeless waste of time. I think for me I'm just going to pick up all my little pieces and just start living my life with what Ive got. I've waited to 'get better' long enough. This is why life seems to go nowhere...we let ourselves stagnate with thoughts of improvement. All there is is NOW, maybe just moving forward the best we can bit by bit, and getting excellent support along the way from MM is the best we can hope for or do. Some days there will be successes, others, not. That post was a real eye opener. It's been 25 years for me too. I've had enough. I've got to get myself moving forward somehow, even if it's a snail's pace. I've just got to learn to live with this the best way I can.

Can you imagine another 20 years of struggling to get nowhere? I can't.