Road Block

[Tangled Web]

Thanks everyone for your feedback and support.
MDs- when you said that I was looking for .......emotional validation more than an actual evaluation of your parenting skills.....you are absolutely correct, that is exactly what I was looking for, but we didn't know how to ask for it so out came the question......
Tweeter-your suggestions and response is exactly what she did with me after I had talked to her again about it.
Nats- you are right.......that is exactly what I asked for was judgement when what I meant to do was get support and try to open the door to the heart that has been so broken for a long time now.

I did talk to my T about it but first we sent her an email telling her exactly how we felt about the last conversation and when we went to see her she was prepared. She told me how she had thought a lot about what we had said in the email and she knows she did not give us what we were looking for at the time but she also knows how important it is to us that she remains honest and is honest and she was right. So she chose to be honest. I was completely shocked. It was the last thing I thought she would say to me, but in her doing that just made it seem ok. She asked me what I thought being a bad mom was and I was able to list things off to her and actually talk to her. I haven't felt like that in a very time where I could just talk and not censor. She knew she walked into a mine field(great description nats) and she handled it very well. I knew after I asked the question, and came home it was not a fair question to ask but it had been asked already so now we had to deal with the feelings that came from it. She actually heard me. She was able to hear the anger, the doubt, the lack of trust.....ALL of it and I was able to leave her office feeling ok again. I actually felt kinda good. I was so terrified and angry when I walked into her office and was totally prepared for a fight but it didn't turn out like that at all. This is the first time I have ever not held it in and held onto something someone has done wrong in my eyes, And kept it from them. I was actually able to talk to her about it.
So that is it. Thank you everyone that responded........I really appreciate it!
TW