Feeling alone

[dragonfairy]

How does anyone else deal with the feelings of being alone and isolated? I can't relate to anyone else because they are nothing like me. None of them have experienced anything like me. And no one understands why I am the way I am. My adoptive mom is the only one that even knows I am DID and even then I find it hard to reach out to her as I am afraid of how it may impact our relationship. She is the only kind person I have had in my life for many years. I don't like to leave my house, I don't have but a select few friends and even those I don't see often, I do not relate to any of my family nor do I want to as they helped to "create" who I am today. I feel so alone and afraid all the time with no on to turn to. My "T" has been with me since I was 14 and I am now 37 so I am lucky but at the same time she is still what she is and I can only open up so much to her. I don't sleep, I have no appitite, emotions are all over the board 24/7, I isolate as much as possible. Is any of this "normal" for anyone else. I try to much to move forward and do better but it's like one step forward to ever 10 steps backwards. Struggle today to just stay grounded and feel safe from the outside world as well as myself.