Is CBT a mistake?

[Cammy]

I signed up for an eight week online course of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy hoping to find better ways of coping with anxiety (and depression). My psychologist told me that the therapy would not permeate my whole personality system, but I thought that if my host personality could be more stable, that it had to be some bit of a positive thing, right? So now I'm three weeks into the CBT course, and I'm finding it hard to do some of the work...different parts of me have different feelings and experiences. I'm forging ahead, some days easier than others. I'm trying to become more active in terms of exercise, meditation, and lifestyle changes. But I stumble into these weird emotional blocks where I can't access anything, and I know that some of it is because I'm a multiple. Has anyone else ever tried CBT and what was your experience with it? Am I wasting my time, or is it possible for at least a little bit of positive change to happen? In all the years since I was diagnosed with DID, I've never done any formal system of therapy other than get support from my psychologist who specializes in DID and trauma-based disorders. I was sincerely trying to be responsible for myself and try to DO something more for me than just reach for the Lorazepam three times a day when the panic hits.

So, if any of you have had any experience with this form of therapy with your DID, please let me know how it went.

Thank you for your help.