Isolation and Trust Issues

[MakersDozn]

Most of the time, we vastly prefer our own company to the company of others. The outside world is filled with noise, and to us, other people are part of that noise. (For the past 24 years, we've commuted to work in Manahttan, from a suburb about an hour east of there.) We isolate to preserve our own sanity, to allow us the physical and mental space to breathe, to be free of the stress and the exhaustion caused by having to be around others.

And as a multiple, we feel like an alien in the outside world, a world where singleness of mind is the norm. We isolate because we think that other people in the outside world won't understand us.

But when we isolate, we feel isolated, at least once in a while. We have no one other than our T and the people at MM who we trust enough to ask for support. We don't trust, because we've experienced 50 years of people violating that trust.

So how do we resolve this problem without continuing to traumatize ourselves? We don't know. It's a balance between challenging ourselves and being mindful of our own safety. But in the meantime, it would help us to know that other people here understand what we're going through, and how they've dealt with it, and/or what keeps them from dealing with it.

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