Conflicted

[Tangled Web]

I am conflicted. I have made the decision to heal. I am starting to realize what those words really mean and what that entails.
I find myself at these constant crossroads and that is where all the conflict comes in.
To realize that maybe it is really was that bador are you just making it up.............
To feel or not to feel.............
If you feel sad for too long does that mean you are dwelling on it......
To own the memories or deny them......
Is what you see happening in your head real or is it just a bad dream......
Who do you listen to? How do you decide?
Why does it have to always be such a battle?
Tangled