spacing out and not truly engaging

[Katz Krew]

Hey everyone,

Thanks Tree House! I figured I wasn't alone but it certainly felt like it. Discovered the issue of the dissociation. Am seeing a therapist who specializes in EMDR. In the sessions I felt pushed to feel anger at my mom....so far no good. That caused us to go to "conference" room (to talk with the insiders which is a feat in itself as I've "I" so was hard to see them as separate these days). This led to identifying an unknown who's job is to shut the system down when stressed....basically puts us to sleep. This explained why I've slept alot of my life away. Anyway, discovering her and "waking" her up (with a "bucket of cold water" kinda shock) made her super vigilant and so no sleep....for almost a month. Still have a challenge sleeping but getting better thank goodness. So basically I couldn't deal with alot of these issues and the dissociating kicked in big time. I seem to be over the worst of it but I still have moments.

Thanks for all the support and advice everyone....much appreciated!

<3
Jamie of Katz Krew