Frustrating feeling

[Emma19]

Hi,
I am Emma 19 and new here after a long time. Trying to figure out the new forums and which one to choose for this topic.
Anyway,one of things that urged us to come back was that we were being triggered by an illness we were diagnosed with recently. we had been having many symptoms but for many reasons we attributed them to the hard work I do in my job and getting a little older. Finally I had to drag myself to the doctor and they drew the right test and it showed I have Lyme Disease. I was given the right treatment and feel like I am on the mend thankfully. The symptoms that got me the most was the severe fatigue and brain fog. Like we need anymore brain fog..... Finally the past couple days I feel more like myself with some lingering symptoms that I hope will go away to and not return. I apparently have had this a long time and sometimes the first round treatment does not fix it all.
The reason I bring this here was the huge scary feeling of being out of control. I do not like when I feel out of control.i couldn't do the things I wanted or needed to do. This was triggering to the past feelings of being out of control.i was feeling powerless and crying a lot. My therapist was very helpful as always and reminded me that I was doing things to help myself by seeking treatment. But it was frustrating and scary to feel those past feelings . I do not do well with problems of the body.or treatments to fix those problems. So I am hoping this is over, but I still have doubts. I guess our past for us gets easier to deal with but doesn't really leave us. i accept that but it angers me. just want to live my life. thanks for listening. Emma19