Having difficulty figuring this one out....

[orek]

Think I accidentally hit "post" before writing my reply. Just a disclaimer.

Here's another: I admit I'm more vulnerable tonight than maybe at other times. But we're not really good ones to respond. We're the opposite, not necessarily using the words "victim" or "survivor" since we didn't realize there was a good reason for the way we were, but we've always seen ourselves as weak, deficient somehow, fragile, shamefully so. I guess seeing the connection between the abuse and how we are today, whatever that translates to, is always a shocker. For you it's to realize your fragility. For us, the fact that ours has a reason behind it. And every flavor in between.

Personally, I'm sick of all of it, whichever way we're approaching it. Bad weekend, what with my sister's Bday--she would have been 60 on Saturday were she still with us--then my mom's 86th on Sunday, which we spent with her just fine, but. Ah, words don't do it, do they?

Hang in there. Any awareness is a step foreward, so they tell us.