what do I do?

[Dreamscapes Collectives]

overwhelmed with new stuff and old stuff that is still hanging around. Feels much like I am just going through the day by rote.

does it ever end? I know we have a large system. I know we have tons of stuff to deal with still. but we don't really know how. it's like we've forgotten how to process things, and we don't have a t, nor any hope of getting one that knows about DID. or even PTSD.

we wanna cry and fight it constantly. we're worn down and tired. physical stuff getting in the way of dealing with system stuff...

but really, does it even end? Or will we be doing this until we die? (not a suicide reference. we are safe.) we're so tired and yet feel like we can't just take a break when so many people are in pain.

we just want to reach the end, and we think there never will be an end to this. it's overwhelming and scary...

ShayRisa and shade of Tony and Garrett.