Feeling stuck creatively

[WendyLee]

we are feeling very small and alone lately. lots of inners are retreating into caves to wait out this storm and it feels very lonely. we have not been so alone in a long long time and it is very very scary and makes our tummy ache and head hurt. we know we have to move house very soon but giving away the stuff the other alters got is not a good thing to do because they get mad and very sad, but if they do not come out and help we feel frozen.

yesterday we bagged up a few pcs of clothes that some of the alters were going to use for crafts and it felt horrible, like we were tossing THEM out (the alters). so we cannot get rid of much of anything but kitchen garbage at this point. there is a whole bedroom chock full of craft stuff to go thru'.

it reminds us of how the mother used to force us to clean up or do homework when only the littles were out and then other alters did not know why we were getting punished when another alter did something wrong and we tried so hard to figure it out and we cried and cried and could not do anything but stand there and take the abuse for some other alter's messes. lots of us just wanted to play and not do stuff that the mother thought was important. we hate her and we are really mad at the bigs for hiding now and making us hurt for them. they need to come help and not hide out and wait until this bad time is over. it is not fair.