So quiet here.

[Five of Hearts]

Yeah, it helped a bit. Mainly I can now catch myself anticipating and dwelling on worst case scenarios. I have to stop and tell myself every move I make's not going to end in disaster, so stop thinking like that. stop being paralysed from the neck up and maybe try and trust someone just a little bit. Make it sound easy don't I. Wish it was. Sometimes I can just snap out of it, other times not.

I tried to move the therapy towards past stuff but it was outside the referral brief so that T wouldn't go there. I get so angry bout csa i could melt glass. Never told her about multi. (never told anyone except on MM)

art and design is a lot of fun. Carrier outcome? supposed to be jewelry artist. Wait and see.