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[just peachy]

thanks for your responses nats and peoples ..I saw him again at the bus terminal ..as I got off the bus he was walking to get on the bus ..he smiled and said hi he looked like he felt guilty, like he knew he did something not right ... I looked and said hi ... then he walked away really fast .. I am just like you said you wanted to be the peoples a super woman ..1 know you fellow group members mean well ,, and you are thinking its no big deal when I gave him my phone number and I went to the food stamp agency ..with hi m on the bus but it is a very big deal.. he is a total stranger ..I don't know him at all he could be a drug dealer or a sexual offender or an alcoholic for all I know .... he also is really young .. so many questions , I typed in my last 2 posts .. whats his angle on all this ? I too at first thought he is being nice he want s to be my friend , not so he has lived here 4 years where I live .. why wait 4 years to apply for food stamps he never applied for sect 8 housing either in 4 years ... makes no sense he had a car before ,he didnt dare say why he doesn't have a car anymore .. he never said why he has lived in 3 states in such a short time ..... why me oh lord I don't get any of this .. I am scared for my life for a lot of reasons as I write this I truly fear for my life .. I am in so much danger .. he definitely got my message clearly ... I changed my phone number. so he cant contact me ..his great loss not mine,, see here where I just switched to different alter ..I could feel It the way I am writing I just have no clue to which alter I switched to this is so scary I am all alone .. he works part time taco bell and gets a disability check for ms ..he is saving to get a car ...I found out about a program where he could get 1 free bus ride on a van each day that he works ..but I never got to tell him about it cuz he cut the phone call short .. so you see I don't see him at the bus terminal but if I did ..I would end up falling for his poor little me act,, worst case scenario I didnt even want to go with him either but I did .. I am not sure how to explain all this ,some one inside takes over and makes me do things I don't want to do ..very dangerous things I don't have control over.. .so that's why I don't know how to lead them to do good things ..I try real hard and the host is never able to come out .. any thoughts would be graciously accepted .. .beleive me when I say this is definitely just the tip of the ice berg .....I am sorry I am ranting on and on but its just a big mess I got myself into there is so much more then this one story there are many others similar to it .. I will continue if its ok I am grateful to be a part of this group ,, that people care about what happens to me as well .. ...thank you peace and blessings to all of you I will write another post separately so I wont loose this post...jp