How Do I know If I'm Making it Up

[just peachy]

THANKS NATS I AM REALLY STRUGGLING .. NOT ONLY IS IT HARD ENOUGH THAT I AM STRUGGLING , THE TRAUMA ,TRIGGERS, MEMORIES , FLASHBACKS , PTSD AND THE DID .. I AM ALSO TRYING MY BEST TO STAY IN AND PRACTICE LIVING IN THE PRESENT WITH THE DID WHICH FOR ME IS VERY HARD FOR ME TO LIVE AND DEAL WITH BY MYSELF.... ..WHAT I MEAN IS THIS GROUP IS A BIG HELP IN CONNECTING AND HEALING .FOR ME WITH THE DID ....SO THANKS TO YOU AND THE OTHERS IN THE GROUP WHO PARTICIPATE .. YOU ALL GIVE YOUR SELVES A PAT ON THE BACK AND SAY YAY WE DID A GOOD JOB WELL DONE CUZ THIS AINT EASY TO OPENLY TALK ABOUT ALL THIS DID STUFF !! ALL THIS IS TRUE AND SINCERE WHAT I WRITE AND REAL . .... BUT NOW THIS PART I WRITE ABOUT IS IS MY TRUE DESIRE AND IT WOULD BE LIKE LIVING OUT A TRUE FANTASY THAT I WOULD LOVE TO BE A PART OF ...BUT UNFORTUNATELY I DONT LIVE IN THIS STATE WHERE THEY ACTUALLY DO THIS STUFF WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT .. OR ANYWHERE NEAR IT I SAW THIS MORE THEN ONCE ON THE INTERNET .THIS DID GROUP THAT IS BASED IN NEW YORK WHERE ANYONE CAN JOIN THE SUPPORT GROUP NO MATTER WHERE YOU LIVE ...AND BE A PART OF IT ...BUT THE FANTASY PART IS I WISHED I COULD LIVE IN NEW YORK TO JOIN IN TO DO DIFFERENT ACTIVITIES IN THE GROUP .THAT THEY DO LIKE ONCE EVERY COUPLE OF MONTHS THEY GO TO DINNER TOGETHEROR TO SHOPPING ETC ..SO THE BEST I CAN DO IS WISH CUZ CUZ I DONT LIVE NEAR THERE BUT IT SOUNDS LIKE FUN CUZ THEY GO TO SO MANY FUN PLACES ..TOGETHER OH WELL AT LEAST I CAN DREAM ABOUT IT ..JP