curious how you are doing

[just peachy]

hi greetings everyone I am still so perplexed by all of this ! I cant semed to get the point of what any of this means... or what I am supposed to take away from of all of this ...its a normal everyday experience, to talk to strangers everywhere bus terminals airports parks etc I get that .. totally .for example my married friend who has a kid .went to get relative on thanksgiving day at airport.. they met a person there a stranger who would be spending that day alone ..so my friend and her family invited and spent thanksgiving day at my friends house with this person the stranger they met at airport .I know others who went on a cruise met different people on a cruise and then the group they met became friends...and visited each other. .but what I experienced was bizzare , confusing , weird and strange to say the least...to me the host and to all of my alters and personalities .. I cant seem to understand or get , for what reasons he would ask me about 5 minutes after 1st time I talked to him . for my phone number and then say if I have questions to ask you I can call you if I have any questions to ask you ... ..that makes no sense to me .. does it make any sense to anyone in this did group ? it makes no rhyme or reason .. I have seen people act like fools everywhere saying your cute can I call you ? or I have a girlfriend your so hot babe can I call you give me your number but this was not the case at all ....1st of all just for the record I am not saying this in any way as a put down or a negative expression of myself that's not what its about .or about what I am about to say . its just an expression of telling it like is the whole truth and nothing else ..I am 54 5 ft 3 in. 250 lbs .certainly not desirable or sexy or attractive in any way .shape or form ..and that's the way I like it and want it to be..... I am very disorganized, always in a rush , and my look and appearance is always disheveled and messy looking , .. my clothes is generally spotted from spilling things on them and eating and rushing day to day to get paperwork laundry and groceries done from day to day .. that way I don't want to be, but I am working on this daily and trying out different things to change it . now this young man that I spoke of that I met at the terminal is quite the opposite I can generally read people well for the most part . he is spotless in appearance ,extremely clean and neat as a pin as the expression goes ..his handwriting is very neat and grammatically correct , meaning how he writes ... he carries himself well in public ..I also watched how he wrote and what info he gave on the food stamp application ..and it matched what he told me .. so point of reference I am making is ...he seemed very normal and average in every way ..he was sincere and grateful for the info I shared and what to do and at one point even asked me how to answer a question .he said I am trying to save money for a car and I want to be honest what I write here .so what do I put as an answer here . to which I answered ask the worker cuz they know how to get you the most money you can get in foodstamps . I said it cuz I was split in alter and had no knowledge of what to say on application .jp I'm stopping here so I wont lose long post will continue in next post.