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[Cammy]

Hi Deb (et.al.),
I am not sure what you mean as coconsciousness. I once experienced two personalities sharing my consciousness at the same time, and it was a very confusing, disturbing experience to actually feel two sets of memories, attitudes and feelings in my mind at the same time. I could even see my one self standing in front of me as if I was two people one standing right behind the other. It was highly disorienting. This is what I think of as coconsciousness, so this is why I ask if you have a different meaning. I am wondering if you are referring to the situation where you remember what other alters have done and experienced when they were your host personality? If this is the case, I have experienced amnesia barriers between personalities so that I don't remember what the alter has said or done when it was the host. Generally, however. as time goes on I have found these barriers to dissolve, and to have less amnesia barriers rather than more. It would seem to me that if you are experiencing more barriers, it may be possible that you've got increased stressors or trauma in your life at this time. This may be one of those times when it is good to consult a psychologist who is familiar with DID in order to get answers.
I am glad to welcome you here and once you post this on the general boards you should get much more feedback that may well help you work through this. Welcome to MM!!!