anyone feel like i do

[just peachy]

HI IS IT OK IF I WRITE IN CAP LETTERS MY VISION IS BLURRY AND I CANT SEE WELL NEED GLASSES CANT GET TO DR FOR THEM TO FAR AWAY I DONT DRIVE THEY JUST CHANGED THE BUS ROUTE TOO LONG TO GO ALONE ON BUS ALONE ..IF THE CAPS BOTHER ANYONE I WONT DO IT ANYMORE IM NOT SHOUTING AS IT SUGGESTS I JUST CANT SEE WELL .....I H AVE A LEGAL HEARING IMPAIRMENT WITH NO HEARING AID A S WELL SAME REASON AS GLASSES .TRANSPORTATION ISSUES ..... BEEN WITH OUT ...BOTH FOR 5 YRS NOW HARD LIVING WITHOUT THEM ...MY QUEESTION IS THIS ANYONE FEEL LIKE ITS ONE HURDLE AFTER ANOTHER . I AM ALL ALONE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE ..CUT OFF ALL TIES WITH MY FAMILY 3 YRS AGO WHEN MOM AND DAD DIED THEN UNEXPECTEDLY BROTHER DIED YEAR AGO 57 YRS HEART ATTACK ..4 MONTHS LATER CLOSE COUSIN DIED SAME ILLNESS... SAME AGE I WAS R USHED TO HOSPITAL FEW MONTHS AGO BLOOD PRESSURE 22O OVER 100 THEY GAVE NO MEDS SENT ME ON MY WAY ...SAID ONE HIGH PRESSURE READING DOESNT NEED BLOOD PRESSURE MEDS IN MIX OF ALL CHAOS LOST OBGYN DR CUZ CANT ACCEPT DID DIAGNOSIS I GOES TO NEW PCP DR TO TAKE OFF 24 HR HEART MONITOR ASKED TO TAKE BLOOD PRESSURE 240 OVER105 NOW NEXT DAY DR TAKES ME IN EMERGENCY APPT SAYS TO ME U NEED A PSYCH DR NO ONE CRIES WHEN THEY GO TO A DR I SAID NO WHAT I NEED IS MEDS TO LOWER PRESSURE SO I DONT HAVE STROKE OR HEART ATTACK HE SAYS EMERGENCY DR WROTE U REFUSED MEDS IS THIS FOR REAL I FELT LIKE SAYING YEAH RIGHT I WANTED TO SEE WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO RIDE IN A N AMBULANCE AT 230 AM THATS ALL I CAME HERE FOR NOW ILL GO HOME AND SLEEP....HA