Waiting for a new host personality

[Cammy]

Being like this is so frustrating. It's like one crazy thing just builds on another. As soon as you get something under control and feel all happy about it, you find out that this breakthrough didn't work through the system, just the one personality. Frustrating. Right now there is no real host. We are kind of on cruise control and it's so weird. I have noticed, however, this this personality that seems to be the auto-pilot aspect of things right now, may well in fact be the new evolution of us. The reason I couldn't feel it is because it is very mild, meek, laid back, and just doesn't seem to let a lot get to it. Okay. Let's hope this is all a good thing. I suppose the less reactive we are, the better it is in terms of peace of mind, so if this is the case, then I am happy about it. Calm.

The thing that worries me a bit, however, is that I don't want this calm to be a nose dive into some kind of major apathy or flat affect. That won't do either. We'll see what happens. What I do like is that not a whole lot has a huge impact on us right now. Everything pretty much has that "been there, got the T shirt" kind of feel to it.