Disconnected

[Cammy]

I don't feel like I really and truly ever connect with people in the real world, except for maybe my husband. Beyond that, it's like people are just beyond my reach. It's that life long feeling of being on the outside looking in. As we grow in experience with ourselves, this feeling has less meaning for most of the time, but there are times when I feel like I am never going to be able to make strong connections with others. I don't even know what it is that I am trying to express except for the horrendous isolation - the jar with the closed lid that I've lived my life in. Or is it the world that is in the jar and I can't get in, but only watch them all. I'm not sure. As I review this theme, I now see that I have felt this way from childhood. It is a sense of being set apart, but not in a good way. Does anyone here have this similar sensation? Of being hopelessly disconnected from others? I'm just wondering if this isn't simply a result of the fact that I have D.I.D.