T is leaving

[argent]

     My T is leaving and it feels like the end of the world.  Lots to process.  I just found out yesterday.  It's just me, my journal and a bunch of different colored pens today.  Sitting with it.  I feel abandoned, betrayed and alone.  This really sucks.  The internal system is a chaos carousel.  

     I've been reading some of the older threads.  It helps to see other people have similar experiences. Maybe I'll find something to help.  I'm grateful for MM and the brave people who comment here.

     I'm worried I will never find another T who "gets" me.  Current T wants to help with that transition, but I am resentful and want to hurt her by not cooperating.  Better get back to the journal.