About Two

[The People]

Two is really struggling. It is about her kitty but also red dot time of year. She has been acting so strange. Usually when we go shopping she stays inside. On Friday we were out for quite a while. She started to get angry. She was talking out loud in a craft store and then again while we tried on clothes in another store. Forget what she was saying. Part of it was the stupidity of the Easter bunny as we passed decorations.

Last night we hardly slept. She kept going on and on about going to be with the kitties since God won't give them back. She doesn't plan to SI. She had it all worked out. The angel she knew when she was little (who has shown up again a few times) will take her to the kitties along with another angel, She will ride on the dragon that guards the castle and leave the rest of us here. No clouds for her.

All fantasy yes but I have never known her to be this worked up. She wouldn't SI as T is away and SI when someone is away is against our rules. She just wants her kitties back. This was set off on Tuesday after we saw PDoc. We went and got an angel with wings like we got for the other kitty we lost first. It has been almost a year since we lost her baby and se is finally accepting that God will not give her back no matter how much she argues with God.

T being away at Easter isn't helping. we have dealt with this in the past but Two has never been like this.

Also, a memory has been searching for openings. We don't want to deal with it. It is too much It was one of the reasons we stopped seeing T a while back. I don't know if the memory and what Two is experiencing are connected or they are just 2 very bad things running parallel.