Faking D.I.D.

[BlackeBird]

I definitely fought it. It was somewhere between a year and two years before I would even consider it, and I tried to fire my therapist twice. We laugh about that now, but at the time I was super resistant.

I remember 4 years or so later I had a family therapy session with my parents and sister to talk about this with them (my parents weren't my main abusers - they were just always drunk or stoned and didn't protect me). They kind of acted like they believed me at the time, and then my mom went out and found this book on Factitious Personality Disorder (where people fake mental illness of one kind or another) and told me this was what I really had.

You know what though? I wish my mom was right. Because then I could just choose to stop "faking" and live a normal life. <sigh>

Kate