I understand but it still hurts

[The People]

I always tell people it is ok. That family should come first always. But sometimes it really hurts.

I have friends who live here and have been friends with me since before 2 of 3 kids were born. They left and came back. Youngest son is taking a gap year and working at a ski hill. Parents go down a lot to spend a night or weekend with him. I pet sit which I mostly enjoy.

No offer when I told of my move. I wrote on FB today about my feeling overwhelmed. She posted that she was sorry they aren't available to help. A few hours later pictures were posted. They have gone skiing with son.

Mom is really struggling with move back here plus empty nest. So I understand. But it still hurts. And as usual I don't know how to deal with it. Instinct tells me to avoid them for a while. She offered to help me unpack and I said I would rather do it myself. I really to prefer that as things end up where I want them to be. And aside from clothes and books it is not as if I have a lot of stuff. Still I have to rely on strangers and hire a cube van to move 10 blocks while people I help all the time are off having fun.

They don't understand what it is like to have nobody.