Can't forgive T

[FreyasSpirit]

It's frustrating how time Ts need to create at least 10 positive interactions for every bad interaction. Even if they have done this in the past, they need to continue to do this in the future. The end result is that if a therapist is doing active harm in one small area, it can be magnified and just bringing it up once in a session can destroy the sense of safety you are supposed to feel and at best, leave you no better off when you leave than when you came in.

It sounds like you are trying to process this and unwind all the strands of various traumas which contribute to this. Your T seems to be at best unhelpful, at worst, actively harmful to your processing here. Just because your T has been wonderful and helpful on the last dozen (or hundred) issues you have brought to her does not mean that she will be helpful on the next. For this, is sounds like it may be helpful to stop seeing your T for a while so you can sort this out yourself. This could allow you to unwind the threads without having to fear your T saying something harmful and could also give your T time to think about how what she is saying is affecting you.